i wish

that I had someone to talk to about all of this (other than a computer screen).

I can't talk to my mom because she'll blow it out of proportion. My brothers don't care. My dad is touchy about it. I don't want to tell me friends because..I don't even know why. I just want them to ask me, I guess. I don't want to volunteer that information outside of here.

I've called all of my friends like 80 times today.
Nobody asked.


Now I sound whiny. Ugh. Stop me now.