my teeth

have been removed. All of yesterday, I was just laying there, drooling blood, and I've been told that it was pretty gross. And then today, I feel much better, but still not close to 80 %. At least I don't have to have my mouth packed, though I do have to keep putting heat packs on it. I haven't taken any pain pills and I've been able to eat, so that's good.

Here's hoping that tomorrow I feel better still, and can actually stand up for more than a few minutes. Not that laying down all day has been bad. Except, you know, it's kinda boring. I've never been one able to doze off all day, so I've pretty much been laying here. And to top it off, my family keeps bringing home all of this delicious food, and all I can eat are mashed potatoes and soup. Lames.

On the bright side, I now have a total of two job interviews this week: Domino's and Payless. I'm hoping more for the Payless one, since I think that'll be more money. Plus, you know, food service...kinda over it. But yeah. I also got a job interview with Six Flags...tomorrow. And since they said no rescheduling, and I can barely talk, I had to turn it down. Oh well. It was a long drive anyway.

Okay. So there's that. Hoping I can get a job in the next few days and still be able to attend my friends'/cousin's graduations. That'd be peachy.

these are a few of my least favorite things

I'm getting my wisdom teeth taken out tomorrow.
And hopefully I will have healed enough to go to my job interview for Domino's on Tuesday. Or I'll just show up looking and feeling like a crackhead.

I applied for a bunch of jobs online the other day. One of them was for the company called Vector. Stupid me, I didn't really look into what they were about until after the CALLED me and set up an interview with me. When I realized that it was a telemarketing job, I cancelled my appointment. But they still keep calling me. Going to have to deal with that, but there is just no way I could be a telemarketer. I mean, unless I had to.

10 (good) pages down.

do you know what it feels like for a girl?

Just listening to that song. In my head.

I feel like writing. I feel like actually writing a novel this summer. I'm going to do it, too, dammit. If it kills me. So far, it seems like I'm going to have a lot of free time. I mean, I need to work. But I haven't found a job. So until that happens, I have no money, and nowhere to go. So yeah. There's that.

But I'm feeling the creative juices flowing right now. I think they're slowly ebbing away, but I hope I can find them. At least enough to do an outline of what I need for a story. Something that I could flesh out, maybe. Ugh, it's so frustrating. Half the time it feels like I want to write, and the other half it feels like I want to write in order to make money. When the second half comes out, I can't ever think of anything. Not because it's not pure, but because it puts so much pressure on me. "This next word will be my future." When I just let go and write, I'm told my stuff is fairly good. Probably because it's vaguely shocking.

Anyway. I need to write something other than my thoughts. But hopefully that means I'll be writing more in this blog. That nobody reads. Even my best friend forgot about it. But that's okay. I like the anonymity. It's freeing.

it's a snellabration!

For the first (and last) time, I'm sitting at the only all night dining hall on campus eating pizza and "studying." And by that I mean writing in my blog, because it's just been so long since I've done it. Not as long as I've gone previously, but still...

It's almost the end of my first year of college. Is it sad that I don't want to leave, now? I mean, I guess I've been able to separate the fact that no, I don't really like staying at home for the majority of my time. I do miss my friends, though. So it'll be fun seeing them.

In fact, we're going to have a late Wizarding Independence Day party to celebrate Harry Potter's defeat of Voldemort 12 years ago. Yeah, I know, we're nerds. But there will be a Hogwarts castle cake. And I get to hand out with all of my friends, did I mention that? It'll be good times, even if we don't do anything, which is awesome.

I've been kinda disappointed lately. I don't have a job (and I don't have one lined up for next semester, like I'd planned to do). Wednesday we went salsa dancing, and I seem to have been the only one in there who nobody wanted to dance with, which was downright embarrassing. Ugh, but I guess I'll go again, if only to break myself out of my studying stupor.

Speaking of which...I should probably work on that.

Later.