grill

So we've started looking for houses. One is pretty close to Kelsie's house, actually. Like, 5 minutes or so. And the other is closer to Gracy's house, but not as much. Then there's the other house that we're hoping for that I can't describe. It's kinda scary. But moving on.

I don't know what to make for Independence Day. I normally make like a pie or something sweet. It usually involves Jello or pudding, something quick and instant that doesn't take a while to make because I hate cooking summer recipes. But I want to make something different. My mom's making blackberry pies because we picked 2 big bowls of 'em. Ach ach ach.

I want to watch the 3rd and 4th seasons of Angel, but nooooo. Adam won't let me borrow them. Stupid Chris's friends, not trusting me. Even though I've known longer than I've known Gracie and Kelsie combined. But whatever, you know. Don't trust me. Fine. I'll just key his car.

But I guess that would be why he doesn't trust me in the first place...much to ponder.

so he loaded up the wagon and he moved to d.c.

Cleaned yesterday.
sat around today.
Picking blackberries tomorrow.
Studying and reading in the very near future.


I really and truly love summer.

indian springs

That's where we went today. We spent 4 hours at that little beach. It was so much fun. I got such the sunburn. And then, when we decided to go, it started to rain. So we stopped by a Pizza Hut and ate sausage and/or cheese pizza. It was delicious.

It's just fun when you get to spend a whole day with 4/6 of your family. I'm exhausted, that's how much fun I had.

sideshow bob's a psychopath who uses proper kelsey grammar

Finally got my book. I guess I really shouldn't have complained. Me and Chance are going to read it together, so then maybe I'll actually pay attention to it. I don't know how long he'll like this, though. We'll see. I think it'll be fun. But that's just me.

We went to the mall today and I got some much needed jeans. My mom got a suit, which I think is beautiful. It's grey with little pink butterflies stitched into it. Gorgeous. Then we ate at Olive Garden for like, 2 1/2 hours. We just got back a little while ago, actually. It was a fun day. I like being with my family. Chance is going to bible camp next week, so I'll have the house mostly to myself. Yay for that.

Spanish homework sucks ass. Kelsie, you need to be calling me so we can do that thing where we study and whatnot. SOON. yep yep.

my amazon order

So a few weeks ago, I ordered two things off of amazon.com: The Once and Future King for my summer reading assignment, and Reefer Madness for...well, I just like Reefer Madness and could never find it anywhere. I got the movie within a week. Still waiting for the book. And I realize that it takes longer from a private buyer. But it shouldn't be taking this much longer. And I REALLY need that book, like, soon. So there's that.

Yesterday was a fun day, comparitively. I volunteered with Gracie at the school, where we talked and talked and talked while stickering, delivering mail, separating emergency books, and dividing papers into groups of ten. So that was fun. Then, at like 8:00, Kelsie finally decides to pick up the damn phone and talk to me for the first time in what felt like forever. And we caught up on everything. We discovered that my fish either loves or hates Gracie (and has no feelings whatsoever for Gracy). It was an interesting conversation.

So now I'm back to my lazybones self, trying not to think about anything. Just watching tv and getting fatter by the minute. Which I like.

Oh. A few days ago I got Ya-Yas in Bloom and The Devil Wears Prada. Ya-Yas was pretty good. Didn't have Sidda in there as much as I woulda liked, but whatever. And I was expecting Devil to be some amazing revenge story, but it was really just about a girl who became a slave to a fashionista. But it was alright.

Yep yep.

they've all gone to look for america

first sentence I heard, swanny to goodness.

Well, Kirstie finally came over. She's a demon child, for certain. I know this because she tempted me with the demon weed and forced me to drink MOOSEHEAD beer, which tastes like testicles, I swear. But she's not really a demon child. We were just having fun. And I didn't partake in the bowl sharing, though temptation was a bitch to slap down. Enough about that, though. It's starting to make my mind all dark just thinking about it.

Kirstie distracted me from everything with tales of her, ahem, adventures. Really, um, special, I guess would be the term. And she talked to her boyfriend every five minutes, which sounds rude, but was actually really funny. And this morning we woke up and barely moved all day except to walk to Ryan's and stuff ourselves. And we got back and barely moved some more.

Thank God for Kirstie.

Oh. She told me a joke. Really corny, but I love it.

What would they call me if I had a toe on my knee?

TONY!

sew

We're actually going to try to sell the house. When my parents told me, I was really fine with it. They kept looking at me like they were expecting a break down, which annoyed me. I wait to break down in the privacy of my room, usually. But I didn't. I haven't. I actually have started taking down stuff in my room, hoping that I can put it back up soon, but I know I won't be able to. And I was so happy yesterday when Kirstie said she was coming over. I'd finally be able to talk to somebody about this, instead of turning to my pathetic little blog. But not. She ended up staying at her dad's. So I probably won't even get to see her. And Kelsie said not to call her until Monday, Gracie was just leaving when I called her, so, here I am. Last night, I actually thought about calling Johnny warbucks and seeing if we can hang out. I don't know if I would have asked to get high or not, honestly. I really felt like just saying, "Screw it." But I resisted the urge to call him. So there's that.

I've lived in this house for over 11 years. And yeah, I know it's just a house: but it's MY house. It's where I grew up. I don't remember living in any other place. So. Yeah. And there's more that's making me sad, and there's other stuff, but I can't go into it. I think I'm just gonna go and sleep now.

silent night/ 7 o'clock news

I'm in love with that Simon and Garfunkel song. Not just because it sounds pretty. Oh no. Because it's overlaid with the news, and the news mentions Nixon. Yes. I'm crazy. Just hearing the name spoken in a tone that doesn't suggest the speaker would like to rip his throat out is thrilling. Well...anyway.

I saw The Breakup yesterday. Wasn't really that good. The previews played it up to be this big comedy, but it wasn't. Kinda depressing, actually. But then I got to eat at Red Lobster, so it was all good.

Me and Gracie are volunteering at the school on Tuesday. Should be fun. And Kirstie's coming over...eventually. I finally got Reefer Madness in the mail and have already watched it. I love it.

I got a new cowgirl hat. Beautiful. I'm in love with it. I told Gracie that I wanted to marry it and have lots of countrified kids with hat shaped heads. Wonderful.

Trying to be chipper. Guess it's working.

clifton and clyde

I'm at my grandmother's house. Yay.

It's weird. I've known my grandfather since I've been born (obviously). But I never knew he had a twin brother until a little less than a year ago. I met him today. It was scary. Their mannerisms were exactly the same, from the fact that they wear long sleeve shorts and jeans to the way they cough. Clyde was funny, though. He and my Granddad were having fun arguing.

His neighbor gave us a whole garbage bag full of squash. Never had it. Guess I'm gonna be trying it soon. We also got some nice cucumbers and peaches. And Bee grew banana peppers, hot peppers, tomatoes, and cabbages. Home grown food rocks.

The only thing that sucks about this house is the fact that there is no conditioner. Honestly, how is my hair supposed to say soft and shiny? :-)

what do you get the man who goes commando?

Next Sunday is Father's Day. I have no idea what to get him. I could go with the normal

Satirical T-shirt
B-list movie starring Dan Akroyd
or
Coffee cup

but I honestly think those are all played out. I could go with the more traditional gifts that other daughters give their fathers, like

power tools
a remote control
a tie
socks
a lowjack

but I've never gotten him these gifts because

he hates power tools. Never uses them.
He has a wide collection of remote controls.
Never wears ties.
Rarely wears socks.
I don't even really know what a lowjack is, or if it really is an acceptabel Father's Day present.

What's a girl to do?

daniel powter must die

Seriously. I'm sick of that song.

Okay, so I'm gonna start off with my bad thoughts because I'll hopefully cheer myself up later with the good ones. We didn't get the loan on our house. This means that we're almost officially bankrupt. We have one last resource, and I'm praying for it. But if we don't get that, then we're out of our house. This is not good. So that's the sad things.

The good things were I got to spend time with my friends. We watched the movie awards and bet on who would win. I got a lot of pennies, let me tell you. Dane Cook and Wayne's World filled up the rest of our time. And this morning we got up and just talked. I love those guys. "Where'd you get them pink $50s" indeed.

Man, it's hot as hell in here. No, let's make that more southern. I'm hotter than a greased up jackrabbit in a frying pan. Was that better?

buffy, the slayer of the vamPIRES

So I finished the season. Chris thinks I'm a freak because I finished it in a week, but I can live with that. It was really good. I was starting to miss Oz towards the end, but still. I loved the Trio. Well, okay, I just loved Andrew and Jonathan, but whatever. And when Willow went crazy, I laughed my head off. The musical I especially loved. And so ends the ramblings of my addiction.

Well, I'm seeing my friends today. Yay! Hmm...what else, what else? I haven't really done much else.

What and eventful summer this is turning out to be...

flowers never bend in the rainfall

Kirstie has a boyfriend. Again. I have no idea who this person is. Again. He's going to college in the fall. It doesn't seem like we're at that age where that should be happening. I don't know.

I'm so unsure of myself for some reason. I mean, I've never been very assertive, but lately, something's just different. Maybe it's because I don't have my friends there all the time. And that thought makes me sad, because that means I can't stand alone. Man, I sure have some depressing thoughts. I would scrap this post if I didn't think it would make me feel better.

I need human interaction. Ach vach.

ampersands

So. Buffy. I succumbed. I was bored. I can't stop watching it. It's like I have to know what's coming next. It's pretty much the same episode repeated, but still. I just watched the first disc of season 3. I've been watching it all day. It's like I'm ManicBuffyFied.

Dammit Simone for making me give it a chance! And damn you Chris for buying all 7 seasons!

Just kidding. Sort of.