7.24.2005

i will say this once and for all

for those morons out there who think that blogs are just for whiny babies who want the whole world to know the most mundane things in their lives, i hate you. you judge what you don't know. and if that sounds cliche, think about this: maybe you're just scared to put yourself out there like other people. or maybe you know that negative gets more reaction than positive. any way, i hate that you judge me for wanting to type on the internet instead of write in a journal. at least when i post on this blog, i feel like somebody's listening or understanding, even if i get absolutely no comments for a week. i feel like i'm valued, and if that's not good enough for someone who has to harp on every single little thing, than screw you.

i'm writing this to no one in particular. suddenly, though, i felt angry at all of these hypocracies. i'm the world's biggest hypocrite, but that doesn't mean i'm not sick of it. i say i watch scary movies all the time, but i haven't in years. i judge people on the music they listen to, and even make some people feel bad about it, because i won't shutup about it. i want to be skinny but i don't want to do anything about it. i want to scream, but i stay silent. if i hear of a band name that might be even the tiniest bit cool, i immediately claim that i've listened to every one of their songs. wait, how did this become about my faults?

i hate it. just, agh...

5 comments:

Barney said...

Well said. You do what you want to do and keep going.....who cares what others say. Onli take in the positive...

Anonymous said...

a word of advice, you might want to not reveal your whole name and where you live. There are lots of predetors in the world, looking for prey. Nice Blog by the way.

Jennifer said...

hehehehehehe

Unknown said...

Girl... that was rich. I don't know if all this claim was produced by someone's comments, but let me tell you there's lots -tons- of people out there who are afraid to show themselves...
Too bad for them, and too bad for us... for we have to deal with their insecurities daily.

Fortunately one can write "mundane" things in a blog, where everybody -yet no that many people- can see right through one's emotions and thoughts.

And don't be so harsh with yourself... at least you are able to identify those things in yourself... many many people doesn't, and wanders along through life lying to themselves and everyone around them.

hillary said...

um, thanks. never had this many people i didn't know post comments within 2 hours after i posted it.

and obviously it's not my real name or location. not entirely insane here.