over it

So, I've been obsessed with this boy for a year. I just realized how long it's been. But NOTHING has come of it. So I decided last night that I just need to let it go. I have this problem with not being able to do that, but I think I'm going to be able to accomplish this. I think that what my problem is is that when The Flirtation started, it was incredibly fun. But it ended so quickly that there are only a handful of those incredibly fun times.

I guess that seal for me believing that I actually could let this go was when I saw him Saturday, after not seeing him for a few months. He had a girlfriend now, the complete opposite of me, and even though I'll admit that yes, he did look so very hot, it didn't cause me any pangs or anything. Sure, the PDA they had going on made me uncomfortable, but I'm just like that around any PDA, so that's not really the big issue. It was a sign, though, that I could finally stop talking about this nonsense. Which is actually somewhat of a relief.

Anyway, other than that, life's been...decent. Ha, I can let go obsessing about a boy, but I can't let go not liking school. But it's whatever. I got two Bs this semester, my first ever, which on the surface I know is fine, but it still kinda hit my ego hard. Next semester is going to be intense, but maybe that's a good thing. I've always focused better when I have a lot on my plate.

But I'm enjoying this break. Even though, contrary to my wishes, I do have work to do for school. I thought, being in college, that wouldn't happen, but one of my professors from next semester asked us to get the textbook (a WEEK before Christmas...yeah, because that's going to get here in time, sure) and read the first chapter. It's not that bad, I don't have the book yet, so it's not like there's anything I can do about it.

So I'm okay for right now. It seems like I ignore this blog, but I visit it every day. I just don't ever write anything unfortunately. Hopefully, I'll post again before the New Year, but if I don't, have a great one!