procrastination

i've got three things do friday, and i haven't even started on them!!!

i am so going to hell when i die, just for my procrastination.

spaghetti in paradise

right now i am in a happy mood. i might get to go back, i just got a letter saying i might be on the national honor roll, and i am talking to simone for the first time ever. it is a good time right now. im trying to appreciate this. its good to appreciat every breath i have, everything i see. there's a good chance i won't have sight or breath when im older. never know what you have till it's gone.

i am getting behind in all of my classes. but that's fine. who needs class when you have air?

NEVER WEAR HIGH HEELS WHEN EXPECTING TO WALK ALL DAY!

and we had spaghetti!

family history

its hard for me to breather right now. that's because chris has been trying out his new wrestling moves on me. that was awesome. i think he's surprised at my strength. but in a good way. not in a you're-abnormally-strong-so-now-i-will-report-you-to-the-proper-authorities way.

chris is possible my favorite brother. yeah, joey and chance have their quirks, but chris is funny and smart. and he's nice most of the time. when he's not a dirkowitz, that is. he doesn't understand why i like my parents so much, but he's still cool.

he doesn't like our dsd because my dad used to fly off his rocker sometimes. you can assume what happened back then. my dad still gets mad like that, but he doesn't dare touch anyone of us. chris will take him down. and he doesn't like my mom because she's a hypocritical liar. but he only sees their bad sides. my mom's fun to cheer up, and my dad is kinda interesting when he's not throwing a hissy fit. you'd have to get to know my family to understand this.

but even though i love them to death, i see their bad sides, too. all of them. and i dislike them as much as i love them. maybe even more. because when mom acts like she's not drunk and dad gets upset because chance isn't disciplined (result of his not being around), i sort of hate them. not many people can relate to this, so if you do, i'm sorry for you.

that's just how im feeling now.

woah

okay then. i tried out for the academic team today. v. easy, seeing how only 9 people tried out when 12 people need to be on it. but he gave us a quiz. 110 questions. it was insane. i got 680 on it (10 pts per question). and they were really difficult questions too, like name 4 words that end in dous. (not so easy, is it?) but anyway, i am in like sin. and some of them were really easy, like name the preposition, or a triangle has a base of 2 and a height of 4, what's its area. things like that. and i have to memorize the capitals of countries and states, which sucks. and i have to know the presidents backwards and forwards. and he gave us these retarded index cards to memorize. yeah, all on the first day. fantasmic, let me tell you about it. . .

i also got a form for student government. and beta club. i tell you, i am going full tilt on the non athletic extra curriculars this year. maybe it'll make school more bearable, i don't know... it just sucks when you have no one to talk to, you know? i mean, i talk to one girl in language arts. just one. and she's just in the one class. i hate all of this junk. i don't want to be on academic team without gracie and kelsie and sammy and everybody. arghness.

but hey, if the psychiatrist thinks im crazy enough, i can go back. let's just hope now, kiddies, and it'll all be over...

my apologies to simone

simone, if you read this, i am apologizing. i know that this was a stupid thing to lie about, but i lied about something. my age. i just turned 14 yesterday. i didn't want you to think that i was unworthy of your time because i was too young. i am sorry for lying. and uh, i am not getting my liscnese in a few years, which i guess you guessed by now. again, i'm sorry. it was really stupid, and i feel really guilty, so here i am.

anyway, now that i got that off of my chest....

i went to the psychiatrist about dutchtown. i have good news and bad news. the good news is that they are working on a letter to get me back. the bad news is that i just switched to geico and i lost 10 grand in the process...

oh, sorry again simone. please don't hate me for lying about being 2 years older. i do feel really really bad about it.

sorry.

day of birth

the nurse in charge of me at the hospital the day of my birth was incompetent. my dad being the in your face type that he is, followed her everywhere, especially after he heard the doctor say,"what was her name again?" i learned this this morning over delicious cinnamon raison muffins and strawberry muffins. muffins are a gift from the heavens, i believe.

my friends spent the night last night. we all played massive games of things like hide and go seek or freeze tag. yes, a bit young for us, but still fun. especially when joey and all of his friends kept putting on special "displays" of affection. ahh, much fun.

this morning we woke up, ate delectable muffins (compliments to daddio), and played a less intense version of hide and go seek, where we all just stood around and pretended to hide behind the thinnest tree EVER. then we went to see Napolean Dynamite. not as wonderful as i thought it would be, i must admit, but it was still really good. olive garden was our next destination, where they sang to me (my mom seems to find it hilarious to see how many shades of red i turn, each and every year...). we came home after that and then me grace and kelsie talked about nothing but everything for an hour and a half. i really wish i were back with them at stockbridge. they do too. they hate it as much as i hate dutchtown.

anyway, i got some awesome presents. the first season of gilmore girls, a purple monkey, a boobah (zumba), and much cash (gracie being the amazing benefactor on that with $20). and kelsie's "family" gave me a cool cow calendar from chik fil a. AND THE CHERRY CHEESECAKE WAS AWESOME!!!!!

i hope that the hurricanes wherever they are, hurry up and get here and get on with it. it's really starting to bug me. then again, one tornado was north of stockbridge, where we live. i was terrified. but thankfully, we are all safe. i hope that everyone is safe, especially the people i have met through wonderful blogs in new york who wished me a happy birthday (THANKS SIMONE). i shall go now. not because i need to, but because i think you'll kill me after reading this much.

chance's birthday and mine

hello ladies and gentlemen. it is i, the future birthday girl, coming to you live where we are on a tornado watch. very scary. my friend kirstie's power was out for a while. i like to think she called me and told me about it because she was scared, but she denies this. but i know it's true... by the way, kirstie has just been introduced to the kingdom that is bloggers. her blog, if you wish to see it, is www.candysocks.blogspot.com. i forgot how to add links, sorry...

chance got four movies and 12 books for his birthday yesterday. it was a nice birthday, i must say. but i can't wait until mine. cherry cheesecake, foil, oh goodness goodness, it is so awesome.

AND BEST OF ALL, NAPOLEAN DYNAMITE!!!!!!!

and I personally get to eat a Sonic's breakfast burrito with picante sauce. yes yes, so awesome.